The process of being human, much like the complex business of terraforming land, is based on a series of successions. Forgetting our origins at birth, we stumble through the challenges of our day to day and become weakened by the suffering. Our emotional and physical selves are assaulted by obstacles and loss constantly, and keeping any kind of peace of mind is a harrowing journey.
Darby, thank you... and as I can only bring to the table - I am amidst my own Saturn Return - and it is hell. I wish to get to your point "and I was standing motionless in the eye"... my return has desecrated my body - beginning in the Hospital and journeying through a rejection of surgery. That is where my journey began - and all my life has 'worsened' through that decision. Job loss, body loss - that acceptance of 'life loss' as the future burdens down on my very essence (or what I imagine to be). Even as I typed that - my essence turned over and blatantly reminded me "that is not truth"... "I am not burdened, You are Burdened - We are Free to Be"...
As a story relates : The trouble is not now, the trouble is before you...
I wish to be as strong as those that accepted the surgery (total Colostomy) as I see on social media. How much of my life has been a mistake? What will my life be coming? What am I Becoming? Will it be worth it? How long can I survive?
The discord of my Soul is living... that is all I know to be true.
Darby, thank you... and as I can only bring to the table - I am amidst my own Saturn Return - and it is hell. I wish to get to your point "and I was standing motionless in the eye"... my return has desecrated my body - beginning in the Hospital and journeying through a rejection of surgery. That is where my journey began - and all my life has 'worsened' through that decision. Job loss, body loss - that acceptance of 'life loss' as the future burdens down on my very essence (or what I imagine to be). Even as I typed that - my essence turned over and blatantly reminded me "that is not truth"... "I am not burdened, You are Burdened - We are Free to Be"...
As a story relates : The trouble is not now, the trouble is before you...
I wish to be as strong as those that accepted the surgery (total Colostomy) as I see on social media. How much of my life has been a mistake? What will my life be coming? What am I Becoming? Will it be worth it? How long can I survive?
The discord of my Soul is living... that is all I know to be true.
I await that eye of the storm...